year three syndrome

I just finished my first case presentation and surely it was as bad as any first presenter would do I thought. No it wasn't my turn actually. I was sabotaged by one of the group member who actually got the first turn. And yes, no one would put their hands up for the first turn, so do I. Because the first presenter is the one who'll make all the mistakes that others can learn the correct way. I don't fight much with people, so, never mind, I just proceed, made mistakes and learn so that I can do better next time.

So here comes the story while me was presenting, in a library. Suddenly the supervisor asked, "where's your whitecoat?" I thought I do not need to wear it in the library. So I have to, right?

"Do you know that we have third year syndrome in our country? *she's a non-Malaysian. That is the moment when third year medical student proudly put on their whitecoat and stethoscope and walked around in the ward, looking at patients, greeting and smiling, because they thought that as they entered clinical year, they're going to be doctors soon *at least three years of practical actually. They're so proud of their whitecoat and will keep it with them for always."

"And different thing happened to final year medical student. They're not thinking of becoming a doctor, they forgot their whitecoat and most of the apparatus that they should have in their pockets. Their main concern is about knowledge only. Yes, they're afraid if their knowledge isn't enough to treat patients later. They keep on studying and forgetting and worrying of graduating. They're under mental stress."

And doctor, yes you're right. That's what happened to me now. I do afraid if I can't treat patient accordingly later. I do afraid if I can't meet the KKM's expectation later. I do afraid a lot if my knowledge is not enough as houseman later.

And I believe. These are the reasons for the tears I shed at most of the days and the reasons for becoming self-neglected. I woke up everyday with pressure inside. Time is moving.

This photo was taken during my year three surgical posting, And the photo in previous post was taken during year three paediatrics posting. Hey obviously I have that so-called year three syndrome. LOL.